As if the first two videos weren’t challenging enough, this third video about The Holy Spirit come along and really gets me asking if I know enough about the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is not really explored much in most pockets of the church world. It is mentioned. You might hear one sermon a year preached on it. But it is largely ignored and when you ignore an aspect of God, you are treading on very thin ice.
There is one quote from this video that gets me thinking more so than any others. Francis says, “When you read the New Testament, you realize the Holy Spirit was supposed to change everything so that this gathering of people who call themselves Christians have this supernatural element about them; this supernatural power about them. But nowadays can you really tell the difference by the actions of a person who calls themselves a Christian versus the actions of a person who denies the existence of Jesus? And do you really see this supernatural power at work when the believers gather together for what we call church?”
That struck me deeply when I heard it. I don’t think you can tell much of a difference when you look at my life. I know the difference, but I’m not sure a total stranger would be able to tell. I have a few issues with that, mostly leaning towards the thought I want people to be able to see Jesus in me the very moment they meet me. I know that usually takes a relationship; even if only one made after a few minutes of chit-chat.
I find myself often looking into my own abilities to do things. I know I need to be reliant on God but I also know God has given me a very unique skill set where I am able to be dropped in the middle of something chaotic and be in total peace. I have many talents which lend themselves to be self-reliant. I don’t think those are mistakes. They are there as a gift from God, but it means I have a hard time balancing and discerning when God wants me to wait and when he wants me to move. That is my constant battle.
I find myself often believing that the early church had a power available to them that isn’t available to the modern church. I mistakenly think that because I rarely see a moving of The Holy Spirit today. Every once in a while, I will see something that give me hope, but not with enough regularity to wipe out my doubt. I see large churches being built, and while I’m sure God is in that, I also see those churches fall apart when the lead visionary leaves. The church was built on personality and not on Jesus. We have to get beyond that style of church.
I’m not saying EVERY church is that way but I am saying many large churches are that way.
As I continue down this journey of self-discover and discovering what Jesus is looking for me to learn, I hope you find some tidbits of information and inspiration from these posts. My intent isn’t to convince you to do what I am doing . I just want to document the journey.